Part 4

‘She’s going be fine. She’s just had an episode of mania. She must of missed out a session of pills. She’ll be discharged after we give her this injection and she wakes up.’

I blinked in the harsh white light that i knew all to well. It was the hospital. I looked around to see worried faces, Dad, Alice and  Zayn. They watched me with anxious eyes.

‘Oh darling are you okay? How are you feeling?’ Dad exclaimed.

‘Worried. What happened?’

‘You had an episode of Mania- go knows what brang it on. You might of not taken your pills. Or its just a random comeback. I don’t know.’ His voice breaking at the end.

‘Don’t cry. Its not like i’m... dead.’

‘yes, but i want you to live life at its best. And i think your holding life back because of it.’

I sighed. It was all true. I had to go to the clinic once a week. I had to restrict how much drink and never smoke or take drugs- it could be fatal. People had too hold back what they said, just in case it’d set me off.

Ii have to go now’ Alice explained. I said bye and she scurried away

I glanced at Zayn. He look sad but bored as shit.

‘You guys can go if you want. Its okay.’

‘No way. Not without you. But after you get discharged i need to go Dance classes.’

‘yeah sure’

Dad suddenly chipped in

‘we’ve got new neighbours’

I smiled. I loved meeting new people, i felt like i could start afresh.

A doctor came back in and discharged me, giving me Topagetmal.

‘take the three times a day, for the next month. Make sure never to skip meals and never to drink too much.’

I thanked him and left hand in hand with Dad and Zayn. We go in my car, dad driving, Zayn sitting with me at the back.

‘you still going Louis’ party?’ Zayn asked

‘yeah course!’ i replied, glad i had something to look forward to.

‘AHEM! Lets see how you feel tomorrow’ father interrupted.

I sighed and as we dropped Zayn off at his dance class he kissed my cheek and said he’d text me later.

I switched on my phone and saw 5 text unread. 1 from Zayn asking if i was sound. I replied with ‘xxx thanks so much, means loads xxx’ i had 2 from Indigo- she asked me if i was okay both times. I told her to DW and i’d text her soon. I couldn’t be bothered to open the other 2 so i took my pills and slept what seemed like forever.